So, today at work I spent the whole day in the vet clinic. Which I loved, btw. The vet techs were like, "We're sorry you're bored!" But I wasn't bored.
But I did think while I was sitting around. I thought a lot. And guess what I realized? I am really lonely. I have no friends here in Cheyenne besides those at work. People come in and out of the clinic all day, and while in there they made plans to go out for dinner, have movie nights, and other things. And I just stood there, wishing someone would invite me. I actually had a mini breakdown about this. I sat in the corner of the clinic and got all teary because no one even acknowledged me while they made plans. I felt really invisible.
And I know it isn't PMS because my period has been over for a few days. Mhm.
So I really hope I'm in the clinic tomorrow again for a few reasons. Namely, I want to try and get involved in something, or of anything, explain my feelings to someone who gives a damn. Dammit, I didn't think I'd be hit by a case of the lonelies like this. I have always been the loner. And yet, I don't like big groups (AKA more than 2 people besides myself) I just... want someone to hang out with again.
My days consist of waking up, going to work, coming home, eating food, hounding the internet or tv, reading a book, then going to bed. At home activities may vary.
But all of the people I consider work friends are going out or getting together to do things. While I sit at home all by myself. Okay, I live with my mom and sister, but even within my own family I feel like an outcast. Mom and Beck are working on a dollhouse together, they like to snuggle up and watch certain shows together...Sometimes all I feel I am good for is doing the dishes and scooping the cat pan.
And, Dana, I know you aren't reading this, but damn it woman! You got that song stuck in my head. And i think the only reason it sticks so well is it reminds me of some relationships I have out there.
"'Cause you're hot and you're cold,
You're yes and you're no,
You're in and you're out,
You're up and you're down..."

So, yea. I feel like shit. And I need someone to hang out with. So anyone at work better be prepared. I'm gonna hound out a friend. And gonna make you be mine. 'Cause I'm lonely.

As for DA stuff...

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